1 post tagged “support”

This school I'm attending now offers free "success coaching" for the first two terms.  I talk to Sarah once a week for about a half hour.  I didn't think I needed her and was slow to get back to her initially, but now I have to rethink that position. 

I've always been a very even keeled person, emotionally stable, fairly capable.  I take on more than I can handle and bottle up my stress.  Now that I'm a bit older my stress shows physically.  Headaches, knots in my back, clenching my teeth in my sleep - I go through different stress manifestations until I get over one and find a new one.  My biggest stress is my mom who I take care of.

Sarah is well trained.  She asks a lot of questions and knows when to let me blather.  She asks the right questions.  I'm alone in my own vacuum and screaming because I don't get a lot of input or have a lot of support for things in my life.  Much of the support I have is given reluctantly.  Don't get me wrong, I don't mean that as a blanket statement - it's more that the only person who can directly help me with my biggest stressor feels unfairly put upon.  He is my second biggest stressor.  I hate when the first aggravates the second, which aggravates the first, etc.  Vicious circle with me getting bashed from all sides.

Sarah asked me a lot of very good questions today and asked me to make a list that could be very beneficial.  She is making me step outside myself and see what I can DO other than letting my stressors do as they like and run me to death.

Thanks Sarah.  Until next time.